May 13, 2013
A Little Something To Say, After Not Having Much To Say.
Good god of all I am without things to say...at least during the day. At night all of my thoughts, worries fears, realizations come... even stories to tell; but by the time the AM hits they disappear like fog in the night, to daylight.
What should a loss for words woman do? Just so ones does not stop doing something she loves.
Pay homage to my blog?
Maybe a lot of randomness? I do random well
Random it is...
I did a stupid thing, I do stupid well to. I met a man on Fet and invited him over.. on the fly, no first public meet. I survived, knowing it was stupid. The guy even told me as he was leaving that I should not let strange men in through my back door. Good advice from a strange man who came in through my back door. Strange things here, strange things there, strange things everywhere...I think I shall take his advice, though I so do hate to take advice....even the good kind.
I have been chatting with a couple of interesting possibilities on Fet (no I won't be inviting them to come over through my back door) I am planning on meeting the him in a public place next Monday, I have been chatting with him for about a month now...consistent chatting so I am feeling it is OK to move to the next level The other guy of interest I have been only chatting with for a few days, so I shall see where that goes with in time, as only time will tell.
I have been doing an assessment of the past year, Looking into my past three relationships (being ones that lasted over a couple of months) trying to find where I went wrong, what I would've done different, and why I did what I did and/ or reacted the way I did to certain things. I have realized if I don't reevaluate my past how can I change my future (I feel a Bob Marley song coming on, good thing you all can't hear me sing lol) I feel thus far I am approaching matters in a more healthy way (as far as dating goes) for myself. I have noticed I have got my strength back, I am no longer vulnerable and I have been able to be clear with my wants and needs... and expectations; also I have been better at asking the ones I am chatting with to be clear with me, and I have been clear with them.
I am as always a work in progress, a ramble of words, as contradictory as ever, constantly growing and being cut back to grow some more. Tis fantastic to be human... to be alive and continue to evolve.
I hope to catch up on reading all the blogs I so do enjoy, my head has been in such a ramble that I can not focus long on any one given thing.
Hey!!! looky, I had things to say. Yay me!!