I have been trying to put a finger on what has been bothering me... and now I know what it is. I am scared, scared of being vulnerable... I am scared of showing how much I care and the capacity in which I care. I don't give the emotional aspect of me easily and for good reason. When I do, I give myself wholly...I am protective, and fiercely loyal to the ones I care about. Being friendships, being lovers, my family, I will protect them with all of my being. I know I need to let it go, need to open myself up, need to allow myself to fall...but unsure on how to go about doing it. How do I stop myself from closing up, from chasing people away? How do I stop such insecurities from getting in the way of my growth? I just don't know.