I am so frustrated and I don't know why, it is this pent up feeling that just does not want to leave. I don't know what it is... why am I feeling this way? I hate this; I hate when you feel shity and have no reason to. I want to cry, but can't get any emotion out what so ever. I want to scream but nothing comes out of my mouth. It's an empty kind of gloom, a lingering darkness that is not quite sure if it wants to consume me yet. Broken but not shattered, and all I want to do is fall to pieces so I can put me back together again. To top it off, I am avoiding friends... why do I do this?? Why? I ask me why? Oh the conversation I have in my head.